We Are Loved

And always…

We are left out

We are sacrificed

Broken hearted

Monsters

Fires burn by night

Fueled by blood and muffled tears

Burning holes in the sun

Burning holes in our minds.

Lifeless and bloodied sinners

Tearing at the lost children of today.

Monsters

Eyes turned inside out

Staring at the wreckage

The wounds

The fading moments you think are gone, but

Always return when you think it’s okay.

In a battle forlorn, lost and bickering

The truth is that there is not one truth

But conflicting truths

The undesirable idea of being wrong

The fuel that keeps the fire in the day

At the back of our mind.

To be extinguished

To have nothing left to look for

Truth found

Battle drawn

Nothing left

Right?

Left

What’s left?

Pieces

Not peace, by far ways

Never peace.

Always a step behind the war.

It's Difficult

Written on Music Tour 2006 (Bus Ride)

Perhaps not the day,

But

The moment,

The presentation,

And the touch,

Feelings.

//

I've stopped now,

I've begun again,

I'm just lost.

//

Simple complications

Make this dimly-lit night,

A purge of unfortunate timing,

Timing.

I'm horrid.

//

I leave you now

With false words

Unjustified meanings

But,

It's something.

//

Something

Nothing

Fake something

Eternal Nothing

//

My hands shake now

My blood wavers

At the thought of your fading

Smile.

Please smile.

It's all I can ask of you.

It's all you can give me.

//

Until you realize,

When I stop pretending,

We can be true,

It won't be so hard.

To show you my love.

I'm sorry.

-Milton

Will I?

Another night, lots of struggle and laughter.

I'm burning out like a candle

My candle is dying.

You've got too much baggage

So do you.

We have too much baggage

What is happening to me?

You're leaving

No

No, I didn't leave because,

I know.

No, you don't

Let

Me

Speak.

//

I'm used to relying on intellect

And I tried to open up to you.

I want to tell you

I need to tell you

There are no other words

There is no other way

You can't

I've longed to discover something,

As true as you.

You know you can't

You're too weak

I am strong

I'll cover you

//

I should tell you,

I should tell you,

Your hair in the moonlight.

Your nostalgic smile.

Your warm flame.

Another time

Another place

There's only this.

Forget regret,

I see your eyes.

As I left

The door closed.

Your eyes.

//

Tell me when you're done.

Who do you think you are,

Barging in on me?

There's no day but today

Today is not the day

You just can't handle this

I can't

Do

This.

//

Take over.

Cover me.

I intend to.

But I'll be back for her

Today for you,

Tomorrow for me.

//

Are you ready?

Light my candle.

-Milton

Stabbing Us

Reflection of a disappointing night...

These notes,

Sharp

Emotional

The key.

//

What is this light?

It's the moon

The moon is perfect tonight

Just like you said it would be

Why am I crying?

Because she stabbed you

//

It's cold

Empty

It's not right.

Because she stabbed you

I hate myself

You hate her

No.

I love her

But she stabbed you

How could you?

I love her,

Because she stabbed me.

//

You're sick

We're sick

//

The blade,

Her hands grasped your demise

The blade.

Her gentle touch, guided me.

I don't understand

We graced the steel together

In a way

We held hands.

She doesn't even know

I don't care

She doesn't love you

She will bring you more pain

Then,

I'll love her even more,

and.

//

I'll wait

For once, you don't understand

Neither do you

Well, I don't care

I'll wait.

In Front of Me

Good times...things to think about and time to make it all the more complicated in my head.

Notes,

I tried to study the past week,

I tried to concentrate on something else,

I tried to block you out

It's impossible to block something that's a part of you

You failed

I failed.

Notes,

I have nothing left to think about

I have music drowning what's left of this throbbing

Notes,

A reminder

Notes,

A blessing

Notes,

My distraction.

Notes,

I shouldn't have been so messy,

Fool

It's hard to read

Hard to see what I mean

Cloudy

Grey

Dark

Falling

Finally

No

No?

No notes.

Why not?

I don't know

You're losing

What?

You're not going to win

I don't want to win

Yes you do.

I do?

Yes, you do.

I do.

Wait

Win at what?

Her

I don't understand

That's why you're losing

How do I win?

Notes

Notes are stupid

You're stupid

That doesn't make sense

You are notes.

How?

You're trying too hard,

The lesson

Is in the person.

The teacher?

Sure, the one you're standing beside.

No one is here

Who is there?

Just me.

She's a part of you.

Then what are you?

You.

Oh.

-Milton

Between Friends

For Sarah:

I have a cool friend
She's from Texas
Her name is Sarah
She has the neatest plexus

What makes this person unique?
The way the sun shines around her name,
Her love for music
Dislike for the past
And a bright future

No,
It's the smile behind the smile
The screen that separates us,
The distance and the time
Between friends
Among people
True to all and false to none.

The words that brought us together
Same to the ones now and through time
Such is the binding light
Such is the letters that we send
Such is Sarah.

-Milton